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  “Come here.” He said lifting the sheet.

  She didn’t argue. He grinned when her soft body slid against his. Pulling her into his embrace so that her back was pressed against his front, he pushed the hair from her shoulder and kissed her neck. Her skin was warm against his lips. She sighed and wiggled her butt against him, causing his dick to harden.

  “We’ll keep this between us for now,” he said.

  “Are you sure?”

  His hand traveled up to cup one of her breasts. The nipple was already hard and his mouth watered. He gently played with the erect tip with his fingers, taking pleasure in the change in her breathing. She pressed her behind firmly against him.

  “Damn sure.” He said against her neck. “Now turn over.” She quickly complied. As his hand glided across the wetness between her thighs and he took one of her nipples into his mouth, he tried to convince himself this would be enough.

  • • •

  A few hours later, Devin sat with Malcolm on the bleachers in the Central Midlands Recreation Commission’s gym as they waited on the current teams playing basketball to finish their game. If Jared would have gotten there on time they would have been able to join the first pick-up game, instead he’d called to say he was running late. Devin didn’t mind, his spirit wasn’t into playing today. He’d forgotten about agreeing to meet his friends this afternoon to ball until Malcolm called to remind him that morning. Luckily, he kept workout clothes in the back of his truck. Even though he wasn’t in the mood, he looked forward to the distraction and the excuse to stay out of Helena for a few more hours.

  “So you gonna tell me why you had to change clothes in the gym instead of coming dressed?” Malcolm said still watching the game.

  Devin tried for nonchalance when he shrugged, but inside he reeled. He hadn’t expected Malcolm to call him out. “No reason, just rushing to get here.”

  “Really? Rushing from where?”

  “Does it matter?”

  Malcolm laughed. “Hell yeah. You show up in wrinkled clothes and grinning from ear to ear, man, I want to know what’s up.”

  Devin shook his head and leaned on the bleacher behind him. “Nothing’s up.”

  “Come on, man. You’ve listened to me and Jared talk about women for years with barely a peep about the women you date. Your love life was so dry it didn’t matter, but now that Jared and I are married men, your dry love life is the only thing new.”

  “We can still talk about your love life.”

  Malcolm scowled. “Hell, nah. Nobody needs to know about my baby in the bedroom, but me.”

  Devin laughed. “Well, looks like we’ll be talking sports from now on.”

  He looked back at the guys running up and down the court, but Malcolm continued to stare him down. He tried to ignore it, but after a few minutes he finally turned. “What?”

  “Spill it.”

  Devin sighed and held his head back. He might as well tell Malcolm. He hadn’t confided in his friends about the women he dated before because usually there wasn’t much to tell. His relationships with women only lasted a few weeks, if that long. He always found some reason to move on, and if he dared tell himself the truth it was because he never wanted to let himself trust a woman enough to get close to her.

  “Fine, I spent the night with Shayla.”

  “Tasha’s friend Shayla? I knew something was up there.”

  Devin lifted his head and stared without seeing at the basketball court. “There’s always been something up where Shayla’s concerned.”

  “You’ve never mentioned her before.”

  “Wasn’t anything to mention. We were friends in high school, at one point tried to be more than friends and it didn’t work out. I hadn’t talked to her in years, until Tasha and Jared hooked up. I didn’t realize she and Tasha were such good friends.”

  “According to Tasha, she’s only been home about a month,” Malcolm said. “For someone you haven’t talked to in years, it seems like y’all jumped in bed fast. Especially after the fight you two had at Jared’s place.”

  “Long story, man.”

  Malcolm looked at the guys on the court before looking back at Devin. “We got time.”

  Devin considered how much to tell at the same time Jared came through the doors of the gym. He looked around until he spotted the two of them and rushed over.

  “My bad,” Jared said dumping his gym bag on the bleacher before them. “Tasha was dying for some ice cream, so I ran out to get her some.”

  “I still can’t get over you being married with kids.” Devin said.

  Jared grinned. “Hell, me neither. But waking up with Tasha every morning reminds me why I did it.”

  “True that,” Malcolm said.

  Devin looked at the brothers. Both married to the women of their dreams. They were completely different from the men he’d known a few years ago. Malcolm and Jared had lived by the motto of sex-only relationships. Malcolm because he hadn’t thought he had the time for a serious relationship, and Jared because he didn’t believe in monogamy. All it had taken was for them to finally get with the right woman and they were happy to give up that lifestyle to stay home with their wives.

  He didn’t hate on the change in his friends. If anything, he envied them. Instead he was forcing himself into doing what they’d done for years without a second thought. What he really wanted was to turn this hidden affair with Shayla into a real relationship and see what happened.

  Jared sat sideways on the bleacher in front of them. “So, what I miss?”

  Malcolm cocked his head in Devin’s direction. “Devin was about to tell me how he ended up in bed with Shayla last night.”

  Jared leaned back and raised his eyebrows. “I got here right on time.”

  Devin shook his head. “It’s no big deal. We’re just having a little fun.”

  “Having fun?” Jared said. “From what my wife says it’s more than that.”

  Devin’s eyes shot to his friend. “What did Tasha say?”

  Jared grinned. “Something about Shayla having a thing for you going back to the late nineties.”

  Malcolm rubbed his goatee. “Now that’s a bit more than what Devin said.”

  Devin shook his head. “We’ve got history. I told you that much. Things just never worked out.”

  “And now you’re making it work?” Malcolm asked.

  Devin grimaced. “Something like that. But we’re keeping it to ourselves right now.”

  Jared leaned forward and frowned. “You and her are a secret?”

  “For now.”

  “Wait a second.” Malcolm said. “You two are doing the late night hook up thing?”

  Devin bristled at the way Malcolm described it, but his friend was on point. That was what he was doing with Shayla. It felt wrong, but he knew no other way to get her to trust him other than to go with her wishes.

  “If you want to call it that, yes.”

  Malcolm and Jared exchanged a look. Devin waited for one of them to tell him it was okay. Tease him, give him pound and tell him to play on, playa. Instead, they both looked as if they were at a loss for words.

  Jared spoke first. “Hey man, I can’t believe I’m saying this, but are you sure that’s a good idea?”

  “I can’t believe you’re saying that either,” Devin said, trying to lighten the mood.

  Jared shook his head and continued. “I don’t know Shayla well, but Tasha’s afraid you’ll end up hurting her.”

  Devin scowled. “Where would she get that idea from?”

  “Man, I don’t know. You know how women get. All I’m saying is tread carefully.”

  Devin looked at Malcolm. “What you got to say?”

  Malcolm held up his hands. “Hey man, do what works for you. I had my sha
re of night time only relationships before I got with Kenyatta. Just make sure one … or both … of you know the rules.”

  “Believe me, I know the rules.” Devin said. He looked at Jared. “She laid out the rules, so you can tell Tasha not to worry about her friend.”

  Jared studied Devin. “I’m wondering if I should worry about you.”

  Devin scoffed. “Don’t bother. Look, y’all been telling me to get laid for months. I am. End of story. Shayla’s isn’t here forever and I know that. We’ll have our fun and move on.” His chest constricted with each word. “They’re almost done with the game, I’m gonna run some laps and warm up.”

  Afraid that they would see through his lie, he got up and jumped of the bleachers before his friends could say another word. It was hard enough lying to himself about this situation with Shayla without having to lie to his friends.

  Chapter 23

  Shayla finished applying the last coat of red nail polish to her pinky toe when her mom’s car pulled into her driveway. She leaned forward to peer out the front door which was propped open with the glass raised on the screen to let in some fresh air. Light jazz played on the radio, not her favorite, but she was too lazy to get up and change the station.

  In a way the music helped sooth her uneasiness. Devin agreed too readily to keep their relationship a secret that morning. After making such a fuss about letting everyone know they were together, she’d thought he would continue to insist. A part of her hoped he would. It was nonsense, but she liked that he didn’t care what people thought. But, as she watched her mom get of the car and lumber toward her porch, she had to admit she could kiss any chance of her mom visiting her after church goodbye if Devin had gotten his way.

  The smile Shayla had to greet her mom melted away when Marcella yanked open the screen door. There was a thin sheen of perspiration on her face along with a fierce scowl. Her blue dress suit was spotted with sweat. It was the same look her mom had when she’d heard the rumors about Shayla and Tony.

  Shayla lowered her feet from where they’d been propped on the coffee table. “Everything okay?”

  Marcella put her hand on her hip and took several deep breaths. “You care to explain to me about last night?”

  Shayla’s heart pounded. There was no way her mom could have found out about her and Devin. She’d told no one, not even Tasha. “I told you about the art show.”

  Marcella narrowed her eyes. “Not the art show. You care to tell me why Devin tried to fight Tony at the diner last night?”

  Shayla released a sigh of relief and sat back on the couch. “I have no idea. They’ve never really been close.”

  “They were close before you started playing games with them. Don’t play with me, Shayla, are you up to your tricks again.”

  “My tricks! Are you serious?”

  “I’m very serious. It’s was all anyone could talk about today. The way he and Tony got into it after Devin’s date with Kia. Aren’t you tired of playing those two against each other?”

  Shayla shot up from the couch. Her indignant march to her mom was more of a waddle due to the cotton balls between her toes, but she was too angry to care. “I’m not playing those two. I don’t want anything to do with Tony. I never did. He — ”

  “Save it, Shayla. There wasn’t a problem between them for years. You come to town for a few weeks and suddenly they’re fighting in the street. Did you go to Tony and put him up to this? Were you trying to ruin Kia’s date?”

  “I can’t believe this. I went to Columbia last night. I haven’t seen Tony since that horrible night at his club and I don’t want to see him again. Disregarding my feelings, I listened to what you said and haven’t gone after Devin. When he has, and always will be, the only man — ”

  “Stop it.” Her mom held up a hand and walked away. When she turned back to Shayla her lips were compressed in a hard line. “Don’t say anymore. I believe you didn’t put him up to it. It’s just that people assumed you were the cause and knowing your history … ” Her mom shrugged as if that explained it all.

  Marcella’s abrupt change of subject was clearer than words that she knew her request for Shayla to stay away from Devin was painful. It should have been a shock to discover her mom’s complete disregard for her feelings. But, it was just another example that no matter how much she may try, Marcella’s feelings wouldn’t change. Why the hell did she keep trying to make her mom happy?

  “No matter what, you’re never going to approve of me,” she said quietly.

  Marcella scoffed. “Quit being overdramatic, Shayla. It’s not like I haven’t tried to find the good. Your bad keeps coming through.”

  “I am not a bad person.”

  “No, but you’ve got bad genes.” Marcella marched toward the door.

  Shayla moved out of the way. Tears burned the back of her eyes, but she refused to shed them. She’d cried over her mom’s lack of affection for too long. The first few months after leaving Helena, when she’d call home from Spelman, she’d cried every time her mom hurried off the phone or quickly passed it to Kenny. The illusion that life in Helena was getting better was just that: an illusion. She could go to church every Sunday, raise money for ever orphan in South Carolina, and remain celibate for the rest of her life; her mom’s feelings wouldn’t change.

  Marcella left without another word. The screen door slammed. Shayla flinched. She had to leave town. There was nothing for her here. There’s Devin, she thought. With a shake of her head she pushed that thought away. Would having him make living here better? Would it really lessen the pain of knowing her family would ostracize her forever? And would he even want to be with her forever? Sure, there was something between them, but that could be leftovers from pent up adolescent longing. She would further degrade herself in her mom’s eyes only to have their relationship fizzle after six months or a year. No other guy stayed around that long. Why would he be any different?

  Chapter 24

  Shayla increased her job hunting efforts the next morning. She hounded her friends in Atlanta for any word on potential jobs. She followed up every lead she’d found when she first started looking. Her fingers flew over her keyboard all day, and the librarian gave her a few dirty looks whenever she made phone calls from the corner of the library she’d made into her own personal office over the past few weeks.

  Her cell phone rang; breaking the peaceful silence once again. The librarian walked by and scrunched her nose like bird at Shayla, who quickly picked up her phone. She didn’t recognize the number.

  “Shayla Monroe?” a calm male voice said on the other end.

  “Yes, this is Shayla Monroe.”

  “Hi, I’m Bentley Prill with G and N Solutions. You submitted a resume to us a few weeks ago and I’d like to schedule an interview.”

  She looked up and said a silent “thank you”. It wasn’t out of state as she hoped, but G and N Solutions was a well established marketing and public relations firm in Columbia. Working with them would go a long way toward redeeming herself professionally.

  “That sounds great,” she said.

  “Spectacular. Can you come to our office this Wednesday at three?”

  “Yes.”

  “I’ll see you then.”

  They ended the call and Shayla kicked her feet. “Yes, yes, yes!”

  The librarian shushed her, but she didn’t care. Finally, there was light at the end of the tunnel, and a way out of Helena. She checked the time on her phone. The festival committee was meeting tonight. Halloween was two weeks away, and the call was fate. She — hopefully — would get the job and leave town with some repair to her reputation if the festival went well. She grinned and packed up her laptop.

  She smiled the entire way to her car and on the drive to the church. She hadn’t seen Devin since leaving him on Sunday. No need to lie, part of her smile was from t
he anticipation of seeing him again. She’d decided after Marcella left to enjoy every minute of her secret affair. Forget being guilty about seeing him. Whether they were together or not it wouldn’t change anything between her and her mom. She would continue to keep their relationship a secret to avoid hurting Kia.

  She pulled into the church’s parking lot at the same time as Devin. Her grin widened when he parked his truck in the space beside her. Their gazes locked though the window and her smile softened, remembering their last time together. The corner of his mouth lifted in an answering smile that sent ripples of anticipation down her spine. Maybe another trip to the pond behind his dad’s house was in order.

  They got out at the same time. She leaned against the front of her car and he came over to stand beside her. He looked at her with a mixture of desire and wariness. He had no reason to be unsure. She had no intentions of changing her mind about them.

  “Hi,” she said.

  He leaned next to her on the car. “Hello.” He nodded toward the church. “Ready for the interrogation?”

  Her smile faded and her gaze slid from his. “What interrogation?”

  “My dad’s already asked if you’re the reason I hit Tony Saturday night. I doubt Reverend Jenkins will say anything, but you can be sure Martha will.”

  “Why does everyone assume it had something to do with us?”

  He bumped her shoulder with his. When she looked up he raised a brow. “Because it did.”

  “We’re not together.” When he scowled she hurried to clarify. “Around them, we’re not together. Make up some reason for fighting Tony, other than me. I’m sure it won’t be hard.”

  His body was tense as he straightened from the car. “I didn’t have a reason to fight Tony for years, now I suddenly have to make up some offense.”

  “It might not come up.”

  “Or,” He shoved his hands into the pocket of his pants. “We could tell them I hit him because he insulted you.”

  “No, Devin, please.”

  His eyes narrowed. “But I won’t. I’ll make up something, since we’re not together.” He turned to walk away, but halted and looked back at her. “If you’d like to have sex, we can meet at the hotel off the interstate exit around midnight. I doubt anyone would see us.” His voice was hard and accusing. His gaze raked over her body before he turned and stormed off.